About Me
It would be a real pain to describe complicated ideas in Japanese for me. 文法難しい！
Since everybody learns some English these days, so I decided to write this in English.
This article may be like a little autobiography, it could be annoying to read, but I have wanted to write this for a while, and I wouldn't like it to be read by those who know me. Somewhere oversea seems good for it, and I believe that it would be better to let people know more about me here, especially for potential co-works. Artistic co-operation should go smoother if creators know something deep inside about each other, by my experience.
Me as a researcher, skip it if you want
As I have mentioned in my self introduction, I'm a Chinese postgraduate student, my major is material engineering. I'm actually good at it, at least I believe so. I love my time in lab, although it's filled up with flammable and poisonous chemicals.
But I'm not so into the part about articles, especially about making a "good" article. I'm not sure if it's just in China or just in this trade, mentors ask us to do something useless and we know it's useless. For example, mixing up "magical" graphene with some other nano powders, and some rubber, and then, "BANG!", a so called "new material" is born. Sometimes, most times, we know it's not going to show anything good in practice. What is important is to have something fancy to boast. I found it hard to accept this dishonest way, so I tried my best to make something really useful. As a result, I make some stretchable conductive material with the best level of properties and really low level of cost. However, my mentor was not happy with it, because it's not fancy. I don't blame him for that, we all had to make living.
In the end, my graduation was delayed. I don't know if it's my mentor's decision or just bad luck. Since I had finished what I had to do in lab, so I returned home to save living expenses.
I couldn't make up my mind about what next for a short while. Then my determination for a change of trade was made up soon enough after I knew about my senpai's income(aroud 8000RMB per month, about144000JPY). Good enough for a neat living, alone. Impossible for raising a child in big city. Overtime sometimes without overtime pay. Sometimes poisonous even. Doesn't sound promising, does it? It's hard to make up mind to chaise my dream with this. Getting a PhD. is also an option, but it means that I will have to choose a dishonest way of life for a few years or else a delay again.
"子曰：「賢者辟世，其次辟地，其次辟色，其次辟言。」"
"The Master said, 'Some men of worth retire from the world. Some retire from particular states. Some retire because of disrespectful looks. Some retire because of contradictory language.' "
I guess I should follow the wisdom of the sage and make my retreat.
I want to be a pro
My passion for music IS stronger than whose around me, ever since I was a child, as a listener. I started my learning in making music about seven years ago, after being shocked by some Vocaloid songs made by wowaka, and a Chinese musician 花之祭P. They showed me the possibility to make my own music, and the potential for expression. I don't know why but I was just so into it. So into it that I forgot my dinners for countless times while learning. Maybe it's my not so happy childhood? Or my anti-social mental state? Or simply the chase for the sun like the giant Kuafu in myth? Seven years I haven't seen the answer.
However it's not a happy choice for me, I didn't start with all that theory that lead to nice music, I learned it but it doesn't feel right that way. I struggled for about two years to catch the vibe, to balance expression with grace. Then I became able to make any kind of music, though maybe not as good.
For particularly no reason, I just continued making music. Sometimes post them up in bilibili, a Chinese video site, as a test of my skills. Yet I continue to fail tests. So the idea of making a living with music was nothing but a joke, until recently.
A amateur mixer I worked with is doing sound effect for dramas and cartoons as a job. His educational background is way worse than my senpais, his job has nothing to do with his major in training school, but his working environment is healthier, and more importantly he's much younger, however he makes more money. After I knew it, I was more or less shocked.
Wasted years is wasted, it won't come back. But I can still choose to waste less in the future. Besides I enjoyed my life in lab so it doesn't feel that wasted. My friend also told me that I should try music, the musician in his company makes 20 times of money than he did and he believed that I'm capable of this job. I listened to their music and I was shocked in a stupid meaning this time. If they can make more than 160,000RMB (about 2,880,000JPY)per month with their music, there's no way I couldn't simply make a living with it. After some digging I realized that it's not a single case, as long as I can get into this trade as a music creator, I will be rich( in material engineer's view, at least in China). Music is a crusade for me probably for lifetime already, so why not give it a try?
Unluckily, there are a few obstacles. First thing first is the delay of graduation, I'm not sure when it's going to come to an end and it's really out of my control now. I can't get a full-time job because of it. Second thing is my mixing skills. I failed to make anything can be called a "mix" for so many times. I have been learning it for some time and I hope you like my work this time on DLsite.
So I started post my music somewhere I can make money, while improving my skills, and hope for that I can get the attention from someone who may hire me or work with me. And here I am.
May the Force be with me this time.
About the strange tag, Chinese martial arts, A.K.A. Kong Fu.
Once upon a time, people outside China believed that every Chinese know some Kong Fu. It was real, at least for some parts of China. Government has guns so it's impossible for martial artists to be an outsider of law these days, it's still natural, though not common, for me to have some Kong Fu training. I have three masters, two of them have no sects, including my father. The one with sect was a master of 心意六合拳,xin yi liu he quan, a very aggressive style, but I'm not a member of sect. My father taught me some basics and Taijiquan, the last master taught me some other basics and a weapon style, 迎手鞭杆. ying shou bian gan, a style with a stick about 120 centimeters. I chose this weapon because stick is probably the only kind of weapon you can take to streets without being busted by police.
My father started to train me like fifteen years ago, just some basic skills for self-defenses, especially skills for releasing myself from a hold. This kind of skills are more or less similar to Judo skills with no Newaza, but more evil. It gave me great advantage while conflicting with other kids.
After high school, my father started to teach me something more basic and powerful. I may write another article for this. Four years later, after entering graduate school, I gave up illusions about a romantic and adventurous life and started to learn Taijiquan. Taijiquan might smooth off unnecessary muscles, makes one less... sexy, so I refused it before enlightenment. This is my formal start of Kong Fu training. Kinda stupid, but it did take a lot of resolve to throw away illusions of hope.
Anyway, I saw some creators here also tagged martial arts, I hope that I can do a 抛磚引玉, to draw attentions and valuable ideas and theories from those who like martial arts here.